...but this time, it will involve writing AND drawings.
I feel like my writing skills are deteriorating, and that's bad. I need to do something about it of course. And by 'doing something', I need to write at least something. But right now, I should talk about the changes I will make with this blog of mine.
First, this will be randomly (but mostly) oriented with my artworks, and may involve some bit of writing. But that's just a maybe.
Second, I will be continuing the "Book recommendation", but I'll (probably) be adding some other...recommendations. Lots of them. (Okay, maybe just two or three but you get the idea)
Third, I will be (probably) adding personal stuff. Personal rants?
Okay, maybe I'm more likely to accomplish the "posting my artworks", since...okay, I don't know about the other two. I'm not sure; it sounds fun but at the same time it's kinda scary?
Brace yourselves; a rant is coming up soon.
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Saturday, 31 January 2015
Friday, 30 January 2015
After 2 years of doubting whether or not my information on my old account is correct or not...
Such a long time for a comeback. Wait, am I actually back? This feels so...nostalgic.
I can proudly say that I have read (nearly) all of the 21 stuff that I posted on this blog 2 years ago. I feel like...doing something. Like typing. And actually finishing what I started.
My dear readers (if some of you are still there even with the intended 2-year hiatus), that is what my new motto is. I don't remember my old motto and probably never will, but right now, I am (trying to) going to follow two mottoes:
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| I might be doing that right now (with the flirty wink wink). |
I can proudly say that I have read (nearly) all of the 21 stuff that I posted on this blog 2 years ago. I feel like...doing something. Like typing. And actually finishing what I started.
My dear readers (if some of you are still there even with the intended 2-year hiatus), that is what my new motto is. I don't remember my old motto and probably never will, but right now, I am (trying to) going to follow two mottoes:
- I shall be honest at all costs
- I shall finish every damn single thing that I've started
There. A great way to start of the new year.
But really, am I back on Blogger? Did I just switch my loyalty back to Blogger when 24 hours ago I was enthusiastically trying to imagine what to post on Wordpress? What? Wordpress?! How did that happen?!
I feel guilty. The telling-a-small-lie kind of guilty.
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| I'm also guilty of reviving my un-explainable attraction to reaction gifs. Please don't mind me. |
And like I said, I felt nostalgic from reading all those posts and all those stories that I actually managed to make and all those stuff that I actually managed to talk about here.
I just realized that I feel comfortable here. The comforting kind of comfortable (since I believe that there are two types of comfortableness: (a) the comforting kind of comfortable and (b) the uncertain kind of comfortable).
Alright, so right now I'm talking about random topics at a random speed. That means I need to change my title into something like 2 years have passed since I have touched this blog of mine and I still don't know how to stay consistent with an actual topic. But hey, I'm improving! I'm actually sticking with my randomness!
Consistency.
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| Oh yeaaaaah. |
To end this confusing post, I will say a few stuff that I did during the past years that I haven't mentioned:
- 2013 - I drew stuff. And wrote some stuff. But mostly drew stuff.
- 2014 - I drew even more stuff. Yep; more drawing stuff. Writing? Memo pad on new cellphone. Handy stuff.
I can't believe I still remembered my Wattpad account. I still use my DeviantArt account, so no excuse in NOT remembering it. But my Wattpad account...((shudders))
Anyways, probably ALL of those will be in detail...in separate posts, hopefully.
This is probably the only time that feels right when I say, "It's definitely been a while."
Monday, 19 August 2013
Book Recommendation: A Coming Evil by Vivian Vande Velde
No, this story doesn't come off as one of those horrifying thrillers with (what?) kids as protagonists. Nope. It's better and lighter (in most parts), but still thrilling in a not-too-graphic sense.
If you can see that red symbol -- and I think almost everyone knows this -- it's the Nazi symbol. That dreaded symbol was used in the days of War, or more specifically, during World War II. So there you go, with barbed wires and a young girl looking at a pretty transparent guy with the Nazi symbol below (and don't forget the title), it's a pretty complicated story with a historical theme and supernatural lore.
(When can I write a proper book review?)
Lisette is a 13-year-old French girl who was sent to the countryside by her parents (who obviously think that staying far away from the big, big city is safer) to live with her Aunt Josephine. Lisette's may not be liking it (with an annoying cousin in tow!), but she got more problems ahead: her Aunt was actually hiding 2 Gypsies and 3 Jewish children! And on top of it all, she met a ghost who died during the Crusades!
First off, the story is nice, it gives off the wary feeling (them soldiers are lurking everywhere), and the lots of what and why you will encounter later in the book. As far as I know, lots of information will be exchanged, an escape plan will occur, and lalalala!
I'm sorry, I just can't help trying to lighten the slightly dark mood a bit. I also love Lisette and Gerard's (the ghost) relationship. But I will still ask the why --
Anyways, Velde's one of my favorite authors, so I'll give the link to her website here: www.vivianvandevelde.com
Night, everyone :D
If you can see that red symbol -- and I think almost everyone knows this -- it's the Nazi symbol. That dreaded symbol was used in the days of War, or more specifically, during World War II. So there you go, with barbed wires and a young girl looking at a pretty transparent guy with the Nazi symbol below (and don't forget the title), it's a pretty complicated story with a historical theme and supernatural lore.
(
Lisette is a 13-year-old French girl who was sent to the countryside by her parents (who obviously think that staying far away from the big, big city is safer) to live with her Aunt Josephine. Lisette's may not be liking it (with an annoying cousin in tow!), but she got more problems ahead: her Aunt was actually hiding 2 Gypsies and 3 Jewish children! And on top of it all, she met a ghost who died during the Crusades!
First off, the story is nice, it gives off the wary feeling (them soldiers are lurking everywhere), and the lots of what and why you will encounter later in the book. As far as I know, lots of information will be exchanged, an escape plan will occur, and lalalala!
I'm sorry, I just can't help trying to lighten the slightly dark mood a bit. I also love Lisette and Gerard's (the ghost) relationship. But I will still ask the why --
Anyways, Velde's one of my favorite authors, so I'll give the link to her website here: www.vivianvandevelde.com
Night, everyone :D
It's Considered As Such
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| I guess I looked too weird. And my painting skills are not improving. |
You can see it right there. The topic of the main. The problem of all solutions. The wut of all whats. This word is not unfamiliar if you happen to visit the 'Net almost every single day (nights during weekdays, whole days during weekends), and I just happen to stumble upon this word. 5 weeks ago, I think?
A lot of webcomics are getting more and more famous on the 'Net every day, and I happen to read one of those comics. (Wait, even the word webcomic is not familiar? Get your head straight, Spelling Checker) As I visit nearly every comic site my mouse can get on, I stumbled upon Red Riding Hood. Oooh, a modern one. This ought to be good.
Turns out that the title wasn't exactly Red Riding Hood; it was Tales of the Big Bad Wolf, and the title had a nice ring to it. When I gave it a try, I was like, not bad. On the other hand, I'm not used to reading stories online. It was a strange experience, reading something online without pictures. (Still, it was Fantasy, and some Romance)
Eventually, my classmates had been reading stories online on an ebook-sharing community called Wattpad. The whole thing that's bothering them eventually hooked me (but not for long), and I got slightly used to reading webcomics without pictures online without me trying to pull my hair out.
So, to write a webserial is considered writing a novel (in a web-based format, no doubt). Therefore, what I am frequently reading is considered Literature. There goes. Reading is nice too, especially when your mind's turning a bit sour over writing.
Check out webfictionguide.com to see stories by rank and novelsonline.info for a complete (I think) list of online novels.
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It's Been A While
Them footsteps.
First and foremost, I will update more. (That's similar to going to the Dentist. Nerve-wracking)
Second, that one wasn't a promise. That wasn't an oath, either. It was random. (And I'm still trying to do it)
Third, let there be more books. (And more stories, for ya all)
Alright, there will be a whole block full of updates for now. I am going back to the lazy world. Welcome home.
Thursday, 18 July 2013
This is it!
No, it doesn't include anything serious at all BUT --
No. I'm not posting a story of mine (for now, please, please, let me concentrate on the planning first), but I'm just going to say that:
TO ALL WHO WRITE (OR TO PEOPLE WHO JUST HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO AND WOULD DECIDE TO WRITE):
Go and take the NaNoWriMo's writing program. I can't explain it. THE WHOLE THING PUSHED OFF TWIST (THAT'S HOW I CALL MY INNER EDITOR) FROM MY LAZY BRAIN AND IT IS ACTUALLY FUNCTIONING WELL TO THE POINT THAT I WANTED TO WRITE MORE. Okay. All caps will be gone (it looks weird). But I'm not ranting.
Anyways. Try it. It's the least the Internet can do for poor procrastinating chaps like us.
NaNoWriMo is awesome (it actually stands for National Novel Writing Month. Classy. I like how they mixed the whole thing). Check it out: http://nanowrimo.org/
or if you're still a kid (like me), check this one out: http://ywp.nanowrimo.org/
Specially made for the younger ones. Not bad. (I like the tutorials, very nice, very friendly, very awesome)
Now, I write. Now, you write. Now, we will write. Let go of your inner editor. Capture your inner imagination.
No. I'm not posting a story of mine (for now, please, please, let me concentrate on the planning first), but I'm just going to say that:
TO ALL WHO WRITE (OR TO PEOPLE WHO JUST HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO AND WOULD DECIDE TO WRITE):
Go and take the NaNoWriMo's writing program. I can't explain it. THE WHOLE THING PUSHED OFF TWIST (THAT'S HOW I CALL MY INNER EDITOR) FROM MY LAZY BRAIN AND IT IS ACTUALLY FUNCTIONING WELL TO THE POINT THAT I WANTED TO WRITE MORE. Okay. All caps will be gone (it looks weird). But I'm not ranting.
Anyways. Try it. It's the least the Internet can do for poor procrastinating chaps like us.
NaNoWriMo is awesome (it actually stands for National Novel Writing Month. Classy. I like how they mixed the whole thing). Check it out: http://nanowrimo.org/
or if you're still a kid (like me), check this one out: http://ywp.nanowrimo.org/
Specially made for the younger ones. Not bad. (I like the tutorials, very nice, very friendly, very awesome)
Now, I write. Now, you write. Now, we will write. Let go of your inner editor. Capture your inner imagination.
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And so...
For the third time, I changed my template. A strange incident has happened: Clarice did this not out of sheer boredom, but with a decent reason! The stars above her head suddenly took another position!
This calls for madness. And oh, how I love to create stories regarding that one (no, I don't hurt people).
Unfortunately, Clarice goes back to normal: she decided to change her template again because she was bored.
And there is one possible chance that she might change it AGAIN.
I just hope that you won't be surprised. But fear not, because I, will work hard just to remain ... unchangeable (in terms of the template, that is).
And good news and apparently bad news: I will be changing my posting style for that reason. (No, no, no, not the time when I will post; it's what I write in those posts)
This is the second post that doesn't have a picture. I hope that fact isn't noticeable.
*Random announcement: I'm planning a novel within my fingers and keys and my lazy brain. Yes, that is both weird and normal. I have Writer's Block and I can't finish a short story (I finished one, but I ain't satisfied. Selfish me). Be brave, dear folks.
This calls for madness. And oh, how I love to create stories regarding that one (no, I don't hurt people).
Unfortunately, Clarice goes back to normal: she decided to change her template again because she was bored.
And there is one possible chance that she might change it AGAIN.
I just hope that you won't be surprised. But fear not, because I, will work hard just to remain ... unchangeable (in terms of the template, that is).
And good news and apparently bad news: I will be changing my posting style for that reason. (No, no, no, not the time when I will post; it's what I write in those posts)
This is the second post that doesn't have a picture. I hope that fact isn't noticeable.
*Random announcement: I'm planning a novel within my fingers and keys and my lazy brain. Yes, that is both weird and normal. I have Writer's Block and I can't finish a short story (I finished one, but I ain't satisfied. Selfish me). Be brave, dear folks.
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Saturday, 6 July 2013
To Envision What Lies Beyond My Vision
| My surreal drawing -- let there be more surreal drawings to come |
Sometimes I wonder when it will pay its bills; heck, it rented the place for 4 years, on and off, but constantly goes back whenever my serious meter is on vacation. Its debts, those freakin' debts. It owed a lot.
And this drawing is actually not a product of my easily-bored nature, but rather through the help of an activity that our teacher gave us during the hazy lazy Wednesday. And I just finished it early in the afternoon, for I was looking forward to what I got. And of course I got that (above) as a result.
Now, I'm off to explain it all. What is drawing all about? What is the drawing for? Why did I draw it in black and white? Was my life that miserable? Was I badly in need of weird-looking glowing balls (yes, they are glowing) hanged above my computer?
Pardon the second-to-last and the last ones, of course. First of all (and this includes the second question), the objective of this activity was to see what we can see of our (most likely) planned future. I know, the drawing isn't very clear with its objectives, but I prefer doing it with surrealism tastes, with weird architecture and a extreme makeover from my original appearance (I doubt if I will be able to comb my hair after 16 years).
And so. Let me envision this to your minds. I write(like an amatuer who just got out of the pen's tip) and I love to do so (W.B. will work hard to carry out its evil plans). I simply can't describe the amazing and unstoppable feeling that I gained once I start to type or write. From my mind, the ideas and weird plans are transported to my restless fingers and the fingers will later transport them to a mechanical device, which I proudly call the computer.
To make a story short, I just wanted to be an author of the published books that I made by myself. I wish to do something different (in a way that I can interact with other people easily, for I am shy).
The colors that the drawing has -- wait, it's only black and white. Black and white. White that comes from the former blank paper, and black that comes from the ink. There was no added color at all (except black).
The dim colors represents something, at least in my own point of view. It symbolizes the doubt and uncertainty as I drew this drawing; this is the future I was going to draw. The future isn't set in stone, it moves around like flatworms in our stomach. And because of that weird feeling of doubt that I have, I decided to remain it as that, because if I will add some color, that means that everything is clear to me, and I don't have anything to worry.
Sometimes I expect a lot. So I will not expect anything, instead I will work like a bee and still not expect anything. Disappointment hits you with Thor's hammer when you expect like a bummer expecting to be discovered by a star-producer. But I force these lazy fingers of mine to work; what can you get from out of thin air?
And I dream a lot (yes, I am an ambitious person, but let it stay within me, it's not a good thing, sometimes). Because dreams can be both predictable and unpredictable. What if your dreams happened but in a reversed way? (That would be both awesome and non-awesome). And it's a really good thing to know what you wanted to be, because you are simply guided.
And I myself am guided (with this drawing). I know what my goal is. And it is to be a writer.
Now, I'm off to explain it all. What is drawing all about? What is the drawing for? Why did I draw it in black and white? Was my life that miserable? Was I badly in need of weird-looking glowing balls (yes, they are glowing) hanged above my computer?
Pardon the second-to-last and the last ones, of course. First of all (and this includes the second question), the objective of this activity was to see what we can see of our (most likely) planned future. I know, the drawing isn't very clear with its objectives, but I prefer doing it with surrealism tastes, with weird architecture and a extreme makeover from my original appearance (I doubt if I will be able to comb my hair after 16 years).
And so. Let me envision this to your minds. I write
To make a story short, I just wanted to be an author of the published books that I made by myself. I wish to do something different (in a way that I can interact with other people easily, for I am shy).
The colors that the drawing has -- wait, it's only black and white. Black and white. White that comes from the former blank paper, and black that comes from the ink. There was no added color at all (except black).
The dim colors represents something, at least in my own point of view. It symbolizes the doubt and uncertainty as I drew this drawing; this is the future I was going to draw. The future isn't set in stone, it moves around like flatworms in our stomach. And because of that weird feeling of doubt that I have, I decided to remain it as that, because if I will add some color, that means that everything is clear to me, and I don't have anything to worry.
Sometimes I expect a lot. So I will not expect anything, instead I will work like a bee and still not expect anything. Disappointment hits you with Thor's hammer when you expect like a bummer expecting to be discovered by a star-producer. But I force these lazy fingers of mine to work; what can you get from out of thin air?
And I dream a lot (yes, I am an ambitious person, but let it stay within me, it's not a good thing, sometimes). Because dreams can be both predictable and unpredictable. What if your dreams happened but in a reversed way? (That would be both awesome and non-awesome). And it's a really good thing to know what you wanted to be, because you are simply guided.
And I myself am guided (with this drawing). I know what my goal is. And it is to be a writer.
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Wednesday, 3 July 2013
An Experience That I Call: An Experience
It feels funny when your dog suddenly pounced on you after not seeing each other for 2 months.
Yes, I missed the old guy too, and he probably missed me too, but either that or he just wanted to eat some of my leftovers. I humbly chose the latter, of course.
He was an orange-brown mutt, a crossbreed of multinomial genes from different fathers. That is how unique the dogs here in our area are. His mother, proudly named as Inday Rosing, mothered probably a huge group of pups. I'm not even sure myself, but I can remember losing count of the pups that we gave and have. The word 'huge' doesn't do it justice, though.
It was summer, the months where people in the West go basking out in the sun, and where people in the East stay all soggy and groggy within their houses and lazily fanning their hands to give them short-lived pleasure. You don't believe me? We are all bummers. We all do that.
And since it was summer, it was the time where lazy days suddenly gets faster like a cow running after the car that has that oh-so-yummy-green-grass, where days suddenly slows down like a turtle running to get the last Nutella on sale. Both amazing and traumatizing. You simply sit around.
But not with my dog. That dog, who barks like a dog, but he barks like a cow too, for crying out loud. (Sounds familiar? Check out this link that has my What? poem: http://limbaroaclarice.blogspot.com/2013/06/a-dog-that-acts-like-dog.html) He was like a person whom you are talking to and you suddenly find out that he wasn't listening to you, but rather, he was looking at you hungrily. No, not that kind of hungry.
Not the I-want-to-eat-you hungry. Not the I-will-attack-my-owner hungry.
No, it was more of the I-want-to-jump-on-my-owner hungry.
Of all the I-am-hungry categories that he has chosen, he has chosen that one. I shuddered every time I actually remembered. Those claws. A dog's claw is something both fluffy and terrifying. A fluffy patch of cuddly fur compared to a human's perfectly plain and extremely-sensitive skin-oriented hand. And simply one of the most terrifying parts of the complex dog anatomy: the PAW.
It can:
*Scratch your eyes out
*Scratch you with the CLAWS
*Hit you with the POWER
And yet it was one of the best plushy toys that I get to touch once every time he attempted to stand up on his hind legs and I will hold both of his paws to get the feels. The fluffy and puffy feels.
But it never feels the same anymore. Especially when two -- no, wait, four paws of heavy gallons of dog strength was suddenly on me. And the dog was acting like a silly dog who just acts like a dog (you know, there are dogs that doesn't act like a dog. My dog is one of them, in some ways).
While I was staring absentmindedly at the blue, blue, wonderfully blue sky, my dog was chasing his tail around and around and around, until the silly and adorable one was able to catch it with his mouth. And he let go, and the chase started again. And of course, I would try to stop him, because I did that thrice (I don't have a tail, I'm sorry, I don't chase tails), and the results were both remarkable and headache-causing.
All in all, he was the best dog. One of the best experience. The best of the best experience will remain reserved for now.
Yes, I missed the old guy too, and he probably missed me too, but either that or he just wanted to eat some of my leftovers. I humbly chose the latter, of course.
He was an orange-brown mutt, a crossbreed of multinomial genes from different fathers. That is how unique the dogs here in our area are. His mother, proudly named as Inday Rosing, mothered probably a huge group of pups. I'm not even sure myself, but I can remember losing count of the pups that we gave and have. The word 'huge' doesn't do it justice, though.
It was summer, the months where people in the West go basking out in the sun, and where people in the East stay all soggy and groggy within their houses and lazily fanning their hands to give them short-lived pleasure. You don't believe me? We are all bummers. We all do that.
And since it was summer, it was the time where lazy days suddenly gets faster like a cow running after the car that has that oh-so-yummy-green-grass, where days suddenly slows down like a turtle running to get the last Nutella on sale. Both amazing and traumatizing. You simply sit around.
But not with my dog. That dog, who barks like a dog, but he barks like a cow too, for crying out loud. (Sounds familiar? Check out this link that has my What? poem: http://limbaroaclarice.blogspot.com/2013/06/a-dog-that-acts-like-dog.html) He was like a person whom you are talking to and you suddenly find out that he wasn't listening to you, but rather, he was looking at you hungrily. No, not that kind of hungry.
Not the I-want-to-eat-you hungry. Not the I-will-attack-my-owner hungry.
No, it was more of the I-want-to-jump-on-my-owner hungry.
Of all the I-am-hungry categories that he has chosen, he has chosen that one. I shuddered every time I actually remembered. Those claws. A dog's claw is something both fluffy and terrifying. A fluffy patch of cuddly fur compared to a human's perfectly plain and extremely-sensitive skin-oriented hand. And simply one of the most terrifying parts of the complex dog anatomy: the PAW.
It can:
*Scratch your eyes out
*Scratch you with the CLAWS
*Hit you with the POWER
And yet it was one of the best plushy toys that I get to touch once every time he attempted to stand up on his hind legs and I will hold both of his paws to get the feels. The fluffy and puffy feels.
But it never feels the same anymore. Especially when two -- no, wait, four paws of heavy gallons of dog strength was suddenly on me. And the dog was acting like a silly dog who just acts like a dog (you know, there are dogs that doesn't act like a dog. My dog is one of them, in some ways).
While I was staring absentmindedly at the blue, blue, wonderfully blue sky, my dog was chasing his tail around and around and around, until the silly and adorable one was able to catch it with his mouth. And he let go, and the chase started again. And of course, I would try to stop him, because I did that thrice (I don't have a tail, I'm sorry, I don't chase tails), and the results were both remarkable and headache-causing.
All in all, he was the best dog. One of the best experience. The best of the best experience will remain reserved for now.
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Saturday, 29 June 2013
To Sacrifice or Not To Sacrifice
| I did so much thought in it that I literally glanced up at the shining horizon. What should I keep. and what should I sacrifice? |
It was believed
that to sacrifice one’s self for the sake of others was a selfless act. But
what if it comes to a person sacrificing something or someone he/she loves,
will that be considered selfless? Or rather, selfish?
How one sees these
questions is different from one another. I, too, have my own say, for I have
sacrificed something that I adored a lot for the benefits of others around me.
The story remains to be a dimly lit memory, and I only have the outline to see.
And yet, when it comes to sacrificing, everything that we loved and hated suddenly
becomes clearer, in a sense that we involuntarily tensed ourselves to focus on
two things: which to sacrifice, and which to keep.
For now, I shall
tell a short story that I have made that has something in common to what I'm going to discuss about within this article of mine. It tells on how to act when
deciding, for every decision has its different consequences, and we, as simple
humans, didn't have the power to see such consequences. It also tells the
consequences of letting the important things go and keeping the wrong ones. I
hope dear readers, that this is enough to say that you have to know which of
those ‘important things’ is the most important of them all.
There was a young
man who has a talent in painting, and he maintains a love so strong that he
never sells any of his paintings, even if it for a hefty price. He also has a
family of three whom he loves and whom loves him back, and he proudly confirmed
with himself that he won't let money or any other worldly material to get in
the way of him and his family.
One blustery night,
the man decided to paint as usual, when his wife came home from work, wearing a
glum expression on her face and hands both full, carrying two heavy-looking
briefcases. The youngest named Jonas ran quickly to his mother and tugged on
the sleeve.
“Mom, I need some
help with my homework --” he started, but his mother interrupted him, her eyes
focusing on her husband.
“I'm very sorry
dear, I need to get back to work as soon as I can,” she heaved a sigh, and
gently patted her disappointed son’s head.
Without looking
away from his painting, he called out, “Is there trouble in the office?”
“They need
additional workers, and I’m afraid I won't be home until morning,” she said
hastily, before grabbing a packed lunch and shoving it quickly to her
already-full handbag.
“What about
dinner?” the eldest, Karen, asked, worried because her mother wasn't eating
much during the last few days.
“I’m packing
lunch. Don't worry. And oh, Karen, can you please help Jonas with his
homework?” She called out as she quickly picked up the briefcases and went to
the door, fumbling with her keys.
“Sorry Mom, I have
a research coming up.”
“Then let James
help him.” She opened the door, and shouted a quick, “I’m off!” And the door
was closed.
James overheard
what his mother said and frowned. “Can’t have any time at all. I have to
rewrite my discussion paper.”
“That’s what
happens when you forget your homework,” Karen said disapprovingly.
“Shut up, Karen,”
James said and went to his room, slamming the door.
Karen sighed
before looking down at her little brother. “If you ever need help, come to my
room. Or, you should ask Dad. Right, Dad?” she called out.
No answer.
Shrugging, Jonas
faced his sister, “Dad’s painting again. I’ll go to him.”
Karen nodded, and
went upstairs to her room. Jonas proceeded to his Dad’s personal painting room,
where all his paintings were crammed in one place. He gingerly opened the door,
saw that his father was painting solemnly, and he stepped inside, gently
closing the door behind him. He wondered why he was nervous of his own father.
“Dad?”
“What is it?” he
grunted.
“I need some help
with my homework, if that’s okay with you --”
“Son, I’m busy
painting. We’ll do that later.”
“But, it’s due
tomorrow, and I’m confused --”
“Ask your brother
or sister. They can help.”
“But they are busy
themselves, and --”
“Damnit, son, go
do it yourself!” he shouted.
Jonas started to
tear up. His father didn't do that before. “Why did you shout at me, Dad?”
He let his
paintbrush go, and his fingers ran through his hair. “Because you are
disturbing my work! Just go and do it yourself!”
Now the boy did
cry. In his frustration, he shouted back, “You are not even working! Only Mom is
working!” He kicked a small box in front of him, and it hit his father’s
painting, which fell down on the floor, with several wet paint smeared on it.
Jonas swallowed. He nervously stared at his father who was trembling. He didn't mean to.
“Get out.”
“Dad, I'm sorry
--”
“I said get out.”
“Dad, I’m --”
“Haven't you
heard?! I said get out!”
The door was
pushed open, and Karen, with a disgruntled James, came in. Their expression
changed when they saw a crying Jonas and their fuming father. Instinctively, Karen
picked up her brother and stared at her father, disbelief clouding her vision.
“Dad, what
happened?”
“Your brother --”
he pointed at Jonas, who shrank away in Karen’s arms, “ruined my painting on
purpose!”
“What a pathetic
reason to get angry! It’s just a painting,” James said, unable to believe that
his father was getting angry over something small.
“Just a painting?
It was important! Something that I fervently love! And you ruined it!” He
pointed at the painting that was lying down on the floor silently.
Breathing heavily,
Jonas said, in a muffled and strained voice “You chose a painting over us! I am
erasing you from my 6 most important people in my life list!” With that, he
pushed Karen a bit roughly and ran out of the room.
“Jonas!” She ran
after him.
James was about to follow, but he glanced back at his father, and
said, “Who are you?” He walked out of the room, leaving their father quiet.
He had claimed to
himself that he never replace his family even if it was for all the money in
the world. But he had never thought that it would to this. It was his painting
that made him replace his family. And he had never realized it.
That night, he
didn’t sleep.
The next morning,
Alice came home with a lot of weight on her back. Aside from the pressure that
she had gained from her overbearing boss, her superior handed her a huge stack
of papers that needs to be sent after a day only. She also sensed her
children’s rising difficulty with their schoolwork, and she suspected a lot was
strained between the kids and their father. And to think, she and her husband haven't conversed much.
She walked
upstairs to their room, or had been theirs, for it was like they were roommates
of different nationalities. Slightly opening the door, she can see that there
was a huge breathing lump that was her husband sleeping peacefully. She closed
it quickly, and proceeded to her kid’s rooms.
Alice went to
Karen’s room first. The lights were still on, and she sighed as she saw lots of
notes and printed reports on top of the laptop. Karen was sleeping with an open
book on her hand. Lovingly, she took the book from her daughter’s hand and
placed it on the bed table. Before glancing at the door, she kissed her
daughter on the forehead.
Next, she went to
James’ room. As far as she can remember, his room was the dirtiest among all
the rooms that she had cleaned. When she opened the door, frowning as she
pictured the clutter in her head, she was surprised to see no scene that was
similar to what she was thinking.
James had cleaned
his room tiredly before sleeping, and there was a piece of paper on top of his
head. Carefully, she picked it up, and sighed when she saw that it was his
discussion paper. She folded it carefully and placed it on top of his bag
before leaving the room.
When she opened
the door, there was a person on her son’s desk. Startled, she opened the door
widely, and sighed again when she saw that it was Jonas himself sleeping on his
desk. He was still holding a pen tightly even when he was sleeping soundly.
There was a paper underneath him. Curious, she walked towards him and carefully
lifted up her son’s head to get the paper, before placing it back gently on his
folded arms.
She felt her eyes
tearing up when she started to read the first sentence on the crumpled paper.
My 6 most
important things in my life by Jonas Crumpleberry:
1. My family
Note:
Mrs. Juniper, I would like to list the people who are under this number, for
everyone is important to me:
Mom,
Karen, and James
2. My family’s love for each other
3. God
4. My friends
5. Everyone
6. Life
Alice blinked
thrice when she realized that something was missing: her husband’s name. She
went to the desk, placed the paper on top, and grunted as she carried her son
all the way to his bed. Placing the covers on him, she asked herself, “What did
happen?”
In the end, after
a lot of nudging, Karen told her mother about last night’s incident while she
drove her car with her three kids to school. Everyone fell to silence, until
their mother said out loud, “I have decided on this.”
***
“What are you talking
about, Alice? This is…” he stared at his expressionless wife before he started
to breath frantically. He cannot believe it himself. It was all coming too
fast.
“I have decided on
this,” she repeated in a strong voice, louder than before. “I’m sorry. It can't work out anymore. The kids, everyone, including me, you left us all out.”
Those words struck
him, hard. He was still holding onto his paintbrush tightly. He simply can’t
believe it himself. He felt his emotions draining him dry. What Alice was deciding
on doesn’t sound like the best one she had.
“Alice, that’s not
true --”
“Don't make this
any harder, Albert.” She looked away, and covered a hand over her mouth. “I’m
sorry myself, but please don't make this any harder. You paint.” She stared at
him with woeful eyes. “You chose your talent over your own family. And that is
simply the most ridiculous thing that I've ever heard. And we were that family.”
“Alice, I --”
“Albert. I ask
you, one last time.” She breathed in heavily. “Which will you let go?”
“I don’t wish for
any of you to go! Please Alice, please.”
“Just choose
Albert, the kids are waiting outside. You can't possibly keep any of us waiting
for long.”
His thoughts
reverted to his family. They were a handful, but life had been a great company.
Their wedding, Karen’s birth, James’ first win in baseball, Jonas’ first loose
tooth. His happiness was added…when painting came. He wanted both to stay, but
he can't let go of painting. “Alice.”
“I paint --”
She broke into a
muffled sob and nodded quickly. Picking up her bags, she went to the door,
slamming it shut behind her.
Ever since that
day, the house had been empty. Practically empty. Albert Crumpleberry had sold
his house, his paintings, everything, but it had been too late.
Alice Crumpleberry
had permanently moved to Ohio with her three kids, Jonas, James, and Karen.
Things weren't working out as they were, but she decided to sacrifice her
marriage with Albert for the sake of everyone’s happiness. It was one of the
hardest things she has to face. She bit on her lip to keep herself from crying
as they moved farther away from what had been their former happy family, now
chosen over another ‘important thing’.
Life moved on,
with one regretting, and one adjusting to the consequences of what they kept, and
sacrificed.
I can't believe
that, while writing this story, I cried a lot, and the touching background
music that I was listening to added my emotions to pour out as I type. I have a
similar ‘important thing’, and that is writing. But I thought over how much my
family can make me happy than how writing can, and I don't wish to sacrifice
them for the sake of something that I developed.
I have my own 'list of important things in my life', six, to be specific. The list includes: God, my family, my pen, my writing, and my friends. (People stared at me as though my hair had turned green; I can't help it, I just love pens) I haven't thought of the story on my own. It was due to the making of the 'sacrificing activity' (yes, it sounds weird, but that is how I like to call it) that I was able to make this story.
Just as I have
mentioned earlier, how one sees an ‘important thing’ of another person (or even
your own ‘important thing’) is different from how another person sees it. Let
your complete concentration pour on your inner consciousness, and focus on why
this is your ‘important thing’ among many others that you also considered as
your ‘important thing’. You should know what to keep, and what to sacrifice,
for the benefits of yourself, and for the benefits of others.
Thank you so much
reading this, dear reader.
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Wednesday, 26 June 2013
4th musing: The Internet
When one is doing homework, most students would fly off to the Internet. Of course I consider myself as one of those students. And there was blog updates, manga visits, and random story search around this thing.
I'm disappointed in myself, too.
If students have to do their works, they have do it on a computer that doesn't have a freakin' internet connection (I'M DOING THAT TOMORROW).When the Net is a good way of finding answers, it usually leaks out inappropriate and obscene ones (lots of similar scenarios, I can give a million) that can affect the sensitive kind. Chances are, just like what I'm actually doing right now, those millions of apps and trinkets and search bars are too tempting for my hand to literally grab that blinking mouse and search this and that.
And books are better. But the world is getting sadder everyday; books are starting to get extinct due to the fact that they are to be replaced with freakin' electronic thingamajigs.
I'm either a hypocrite, or I just have this strong sense of distraction whenever I see new stories or the like. I just don't understand myself sometimes, and I don't understand others, too. Let's just say it depends on you, whether you're the:
a.) Go-by-the-book person
b.) The Surfer
c.) The Neutral (uses both, or uses a device that doesn't have an internet connection) (I AM NEUTRAL IN SOME SENSE)
You decide from your own opinions, dear readers.
Sunday, 23 June 2013
I will let YOU recommend a book!
Surprisingly, I am a person who can bum and stress out at the same time. I simply multitask. But that isn't what I'm posting here all about. I wish to read, for I have finished almost all the books here in the house (and I don't have any time for the library), and I think I can read online, for we have internet connection, here...
So, just like what the post title is saying: I will let YOU recommend a book!
Dear person who is reading this right now;
I humbly request a heartfelt recommendation from you, for I am in need of an exhalarating novel that can kick me off from my seat. You can send it through email (executehathorn400@ymail.com) or simply through commenting on this post. I am patiently waiting for your recommendation as I will fight these biting ants as I type.
P.S. This is also for other people (who are reading this) to know what great recommendations this 'dear person' can give us. Share what you know! It's highly appreciated.
Yours sincerely,
The Bumming Pen
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Saturday, 22 June 2013
3rd musing: Inspiration
We are all inspired to do something crazy, unusual, awesome, and confusing things, but never normal. Such as in the case of adolescents and young running chaps, even adults.
For instance, I am inspired to write because I wish to inspire other people -- wait, inspire is not the right word, entertain should do.
Supposedly, my older cousin was inspired to teach people whose first language isn't English simply to help them. Or maybe people with certain disabilities were inspired to do things that were beyond their normal abilities. And that is simply awesome.
It's good to know that inspiration works like a machine: both your subconscious mind and active body will work together to get through that inspiration! It works automatically. It works like it's magic. It works like a dog chasing his running owner who has his favourite treat in his hand.
We admit: we're just like dogs, chasing after those tasty treats, because treats can be either good or life-changing (or maybe even bad), or maybe enough to make you say, FINALLY.
Supposedly, my older cousin was inspired to teach people whose first language isn't English simply to help them. Or maybe people with certain disabilities were inspired to do things that were beyond their normal abilities. And that is simply awesome.
It's good to know that inspiration works like a machine: both your subconscious mind and active body will work together to get through that inspiration! It works automatically. It works like it's magic. It works like a dog chasing his running owner who has his favourite treat in his hand.
We admit: we're just like dogs, chasing after those tasty treats, because treats can be either good or life-changing (or maybe even bad), or maybe enough to make you say, FINALLY.
Friday, 21 June 2013
2nd musing: Stubborn Stones and Writer's Block
Sometimes I simply don't understand myself. Whenever I write something, I force myself to do it, not because I don't want to, but it's the opposite instead. And this is what I usually suffer from. I don't even know why I'm suffering from this. Suppose it's because I have a stone's stubbornness, something that will break down once lava or another superior object hits it.
Within this head of mine, there are lots of things that I can't explain through words, simply because I don't know if I should use this word or maybe this one, or should I be vocabulary-smart, or should I be simply simple with the words, or whatever. In the end, I'm always confusing.
Thankfully, that stubborn stone helped me in finishing at least three short stories. This is the happiest day of my life. :D Alright writers, fight the Writer's Block and write what you want to say!
Within this head of mine, there are lots of things that I can't explain through words, simply because I don't know if I should use this word or maybe this one, or should I be vocabulary-smart, or should I be simply simple with the words, or whatever. In the end, I'm always confusing.
Thankfully, that stubborn stone helped me in finishing at least three short stories. This is the happiest day of my life. :D Alright writers, fight the Writer's Block and write what you want to say!
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